Sufferings-regrets-pain..

2009-07-11T06:11:00.000-07:00

My feeling now shld be like this --> LOL
Now feel so...
This yr is a bad yr..

2009-07-11T03:10:00.000-07:00

Everything thats happening..really wan make me kill myself..
Maybe not now..not tmr..
but during holiday ba.
Even if i die ppl will just forget abt my existence.
I've alr found de perfect way to die in a 'peaceful' way.
I dun wanna live my life knowing tat im such a failure in life.
Dying seems to be de pefect solution to everything
maybe if gone everything would be perfect.
I dun wanna live my life having nightmares abt de past..
I dun wanna close my eyes & relieve those moments..
I dun wanna be sad for de rest of my life..
I dun wanna worry for everything..
I dun wanna live & die suddenly..

2009-07-10T02:28:00.000-07:00

Anw qr, u wan go with they all i okay de..
but dun lik comments or wadeva..
I jus dun lik ppl kaypoh my family..i dun lik tat who...
i dun lik ppl saying my mother..

As long as u lik, i will ren de k..
for how long i dunno but rest assured u will hear no complaints or scoldings or attitudes from me again..
Im sorry cos i 忍耐 for 7plus++ months le..cant take it anymore
对不起!!!!
i know im not a good fren..
i dun talk much, i dun socialize, im not clever, I dun smile,
I didn't do alot of things for u..
Im boring & not sociable to ppl ..

Lastly..im not everything tat they all is..
对不起 !!

2009-07-10T02:10:00.000-07:00

10july

Erm 2day as usual in de morning..
den got mt..
i dun lik zhange yan..-.-
I hate my place!!!!
nobody talk to ..lol..
nvr bring txtbk den cockroach ask me go share with stacey.
We talk talk abt Zhang yan XD XD
Ever since de day she wear tat black dunno wad shirt..
she's been wearing it ever since..-_-
LOL.. nvr change clothes
Hahs. xD

Okay den aft mt got chem..
teacher show de vitamin c de tablet.
Lol..den blah blah..
Done .

2009-07-10T02:05:00.000-07:00

9 july

Today cz qr me go central den cz & qr saw byron & jun jie..den blah blah..
Jiu saw one cat damn cute de..so qr wan carry it ma so i pick it up & carry it around..I carry de cat lik my baby liddat XD XD lol.. I feel kinda ps carry it in my arms everywhere..LOL..hah..

But de cat damn cute lah..wan bring home sia..LOL..

but in de end just let it go..

When we feeding de cat somewhere in central..

(my room..lol..just random pics..)

Done le ba...

2009-07-09T05:01:00.000-07:00

2day..jus so lazy to elaborate much..nth much happen i guess..
I feel so confuse...
blister damn pain..lol
i dunno wad im thinking le..
Im trying so hard to look at things from in a positive way..
all my life..i now den realise my thinking is always negative..
negative = most of de time i feel sad.
My self confidence had been hit so hard last..now have low self esteem..
I now den realise i dun have any confidence in wadever i do..
I always have de thinking tat wadever i do , i will not succeed..
I dun dare look ppl in de eye..i dunno why..
maybe cos i wad afraid of history repeating itself...
I dunno how forget tat thing..
I just cant do it....

對不起!!!!!!!!!

2009-07-08T05:16:00.000-07:00

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2009-05-28T04:54:00.000-07:00

Currently playng fb games..
LOL.
Okay umm..
Den we all go de dunno wad discovery centre..& i hate de bus..
not smelly or anything..
de worst ting i hate most in tis world is de bus. =.=
umm..
Okay enough of my nonsense.
posting zoo pics .
no one will see but jus posting for de fun of it (:
zoo pic(ytd)

but not all here, well nvm (:

2009-05-23T06:40:00.001-07:00

Walk the path before you, shed your tears and express your fears. Would you be willing? Or do you prefer to bottle it all in creating rage within? Life is a mystery to us all. Live, laugh, love and loose. Something we all know to well.We all live our lives from one day to the next no matter how complex.We all laugh, and we all love.But during the process of it all… We loose someone or something that seems to hit the base of our hearts and tears us down only to ask ourselves… Was it all worth it?Sadness is experienced through out the world. A common emotion amongst human kind.It’s bitter sweet. We can never over look it.

“It’s sad when the people you know Became people you knew. When you can walk right past someone. Like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours And now you can barely even look at them.”

The ones that you love the most are usually the ones that hurt you the most

Life isn’t always what you want it to be. It has its ups and it has its downs; but you’ll always come through scratched and scarred, but know that the experience is just going to make you stronger. As a wise person once said, “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.” So no matter how many times someone pushes you down in life, stand right back up, and keep moving towards who you want to be and what you want to do. No matter who you are or where you’re from, always remember you can make it through whatever anyone throws at you if you just try hard enough.I am a slow dying flower, in the frost-killing hour, sweet turning sour and untouchable.We only accept the love we think we deserve.This world is a cruel and ugly place to live in, but once in a while, we’re reminded of how beautiful it can be.The worst feeling is knowing that you aren’t needed.That you are alone in this world, and that you no long have a reason to live...

2009-05-21T05:21:00.001-07:00

First few posts deleted..
LOL
wants a fresh start? =="

2009-05-19T05:40:00.000-07:00

You Feel Like You Don't Fit In 59% Of The Time

Life can be a struggle for you. You have a place in the world, but you may not have found it yet. Don't give up though. You are a unique person, and that means you don't fit in all the time. But it is something you should not fight against but embrace. You will find your way.

Do You Have a Place in This World?
Take More Quizzes

OKay..erm..dun feel lik posting..

=="

LOL

2009-05-18T03:47:00.000-07:00

To qian ru :

Haiz..okay luh..if u wan go with them i also cannot do anything..

Get this clear : u happy den i happy le =))

haha my dearest mei xD xD

wahh..i simply cannot stop using tis face!! xD

=="

Okay luh, i know bj they all also not tat bad or wad..

I know they quite friendly de.

i know..anw i dun dislike bj they all uh :]

kk wadeva..

Haha ur one of de most important ppl in my life xD xD

Tats de reason why i go 3/4 for u

haha xD

I from 3/3 "jumped" to 3/4 for u leh

U shld honour hor xD

Mus also be happy hor..

I nvr do tis for any one of my fren b4 xD xD

If u dun get wad i mean,i understand..

I ALSO DUN GET WAD I MEAN xD xD

okay let me continue..

ummm..let me tink first uhh...

ehhh..

also..

Haha

thank u everytime pei me in wadeva i do xD

=))

Xie xie (!)

kk..

i tink im down with tis post specially for qian ru aka hamster xD

Although short,but u shld know wad i mean =))

2009-05-16T00:43:00.000-07:00

well, i've nth else to say.. haiz... okay let me post abt smth i wan post abt? == kk.. When i first entered sec1.. i've not really made any frens in the first 3months.. den when march came.. hannah transfered here.. at first, i did not even talk to her at all.. den abt 2months l8r.. umm..i dn rmb much.. is she talk to me first? or i talk to her first de? well, who cares.. let me continue.. den aft tat we became good fren.. haiz.. rmb,one time.. tat time was recess she took me to a staircase on the 3rd floor.. well, don't rmb wth we doing dere.. but rmb every p.e time we always go the 3rd floor teacher's toilet change de even once,we spent the whole of our recess time dere jus to do her hair.. okay wadever..tink of it.make me sorta upset yah.. :( den came sec2... blah blah blah.. lazy elaborate tat much.. so yah.. den came de time where we follow cz & fiona for recess.. BAD IDEA though.. aft tat time .. we nvr really talked.. no idea... is she dun wan talk to me or is i dun wan talk to her? Haiz.. den aft tat i rmb..
From de time on..
i went with qr..
Last yr in september i tink..
till now lor..
den came feb tis yr..
where dere comes along her frens : Bj,arthur they all..
:'(
okay see de crying face over dere?
obviously u will know wad tat means
den aft tat cz nvr go with fiona le..
den from tat month on she go with qr le..
den dere, 3 of us..
hannah not really,we got talk to her..
So yah.. :(
mostly aft sch she would go with bj arthur they all..
den i feel extra so decided to go dunno where emo on my own.. :(
Those few days felt terrible..
Or did i mention?
i almost jumped..
yah..
wadever..
den from tat day on she always go with them..
not tat i lik..
I HATE IT..
but wad can i do leh?
nth :(
haiz...
not tat i dun lik them or wad..
is tat i feel kinda extra & left out..
De feeling is extremly terrible..
no one seems to understand me or wad..
okay i know i posting craps tat no one would read..
well? who cares~
let me continue..
de feeling sux luh..
:'(
i dunno how many times i cried alr..
cry also no use de
wads happen alr happen..
highlighted in purple or wadeva colour den important,
lol..
den now she also going with them..
Haiz..
i dunno how much longer i can take it..
one fine day i dunno wad i may do..
URGH!! :(
no one really understands me..
i dun even understand myself..
den even as i wanna go back to de times in 07
where me & hannah were so happy..
okay wadever..so long liao -.-
To tell u de truth now..
becos of tis....
I NOW MORE & MORE DISLIK GUYS ALR..==
esp _______ they all -.-! .... :(
argh..
&& if i had de ability to turn backtime..
i wished i had jumped,die in peace..
no troubles or anything..
I wish i can disappear rite now :(

2009-05-15T01:05:00.000-07:00

Currently posting now uh..
hmm..let me use proper english :)
hehe xD xD
okay here it goes..
well i don't know what to blog about..
because there's always nothing to blog about..

Life' tragedy is that we grow old too soon,wise too late

okay i dun wan use proper english le

well,its no use..
wad can i do to stop this feeling?
or rather u
stop going with them..
haiz..
but wad can i do?
Sit back lik an idiot..
crying..
haixx
:'(
1day u'll know..

okay ending post here..
smile every1 :)